Happy Early 4th of July!

Hey readers sorry I haven't been posting! Okay well I'm really tired so I'll get straight to what I did these past days, Well thank god for summer vacation I actually get to relax now! Haha. Well a few days ago I went to the beach that was really fun. Edgar and I are still going out. Heh. Evverythings going smooth so far. So, I've been wanting to get into a hobby .. Well, I decided to learn how to play an Acoustic Guitar! Haha. When, I get the one I like I'll post pictures of it. Bye readers! - Peace, Marie.

Who cares? :)

Hello readers! Sorry I haven't posted in a while but I hope this posting will make it up? :) Okay so today I went to my old elementary school with my best friend Lexy and well I had a blast we've done this many times but I just really like hanging out with her! Well not much has been happening with me and Edgar. We haven't talked for 3 or 4 days now. I think today is the 5th day we haven't talked to each other. And, I know he's not mad at me he's upset about something that happened with his friends. Well, I know he's not mad at me because a long time ago he told me to check out his Myspace and well I decided to look at it now and he still has our pictures up and such. So, if he was mad at me he wouldn't have those pictures up. But, I've been thinking. For the past days I've been depressed. Because of him! And, well people have noticed about my change in attitude. And today I realized I don't need him at all! I don't need him to make me happy. I don't need him so I can talk to him about my problems! I've been so stupid to be depressed over him! I'm really going to stick to my word now. I don't need to be with anyone to make me feel happy. I have my family and my friends! So, you know what who cares? :) And to make up for all those days of being depressed I decided to hang out with my friends more often. I'm barely realizing I don't need to go out with someone to make me feel loved. I am so stupid! But I'm glad I realized it now. I'm not saying that I don't care about Edgar. No no, I do care about him. I just won't be thinking about him all the time anymore. Besides I'm too young to be feeling these emotions! I'm only 13! Besides he's a grade higher than I am. That isn't right at all. So, you know I'm going to enjoy this relationship no matter how long it lasts. I mean we can still be friends. I don't mind I have no problem with that. It's just I tried that before now the guy doesn't even say Hi to me while I try to be nice to him! But, I'll still try it. Okay well I'm going to go. Bye readers! - Peace, Marie.

Oh..thank god!

Hey readers! So, remember I told you about the website I was going to make. Well, I made it! It's only for photography of mine but it explains it a lot more on the website. Though it is not fully completed.http://photographyflash.webstarts.com/
Hehe! Oh, readers..I am so happy. For awhile I thought Edgar and I were slipping apart.Thank god he texted me reassuring that he still loved me. He showed me something too. It was a picture of us that he edited and such! It was very cute. Oh readers but for some reason I can't stop thinking about how alone I feel. I don't know why but for at least a week now I've been feeling alone and such. I mean I know my parents love me. But I've been noticing I've been acting differently to them now. It's like..Well I'm just excluding myself in everything we do. And when I do do this I don't realize it. So, I start feeling very alone and it just bothers me alot. I can't really talk to my parents about this because the last time I did they ended up mad at me and saying that we're all living in the same house..and blah blah blah. But whatever. I'll get over this.. I'm going to be hanging out with Edgar often just to see if that feeling goes away. Okay, well I'm going to go now. Bye readers! -Peace, Marie.

An Idea..

Hello readers! Not muched has happened over the days that I haven't been posting. I was going to hang out with my friend tomorrow but she recently called and said that she couldn't make it because her parents are frustrated with her..Okay I guess so.. So, I might hang out with Edgar or my best friend Nick. Who knows. I would like to hang out with Edgar but I don't know his number so, I usually have to wait for him to text me. And he doesn't have a cell phone so he uses his friends phones or his sister's phone..But anyways, as I said on one of my last postings, I said I would make a website but I didn't know what to do with it. I also mentioned about getting a camera. Well now that I have one. I can practice my photography skills. Hehe. So, once I get the hang of creating a website I'll let you readers know! Okay well I just wanted to keep this updated so I'll post some more maybe tomorrow or some other day. Bye readers! - Peace, Marie.

New haircut.

Hello readers! Nothing much has happened lately. I've still been talking to Edgar so all is good. On Saturday I'm going to be hanging out with friends at my house. So, that'll be fun. I'm hoping my mom will take me to the hair salon to get my 'do' done. I'm just going to have my bangs straight across instead of side swept. We'll see how this comes out! I've been looking for a guitar and I found a nice guitar cheap too! For only 100 dollars! And I have just enough to buy it. (: So, let's see how that goes. Okay well since I don't have much to say, I'm going to go. Bye readers!
Oh P.S. the site meter thing, well that's not the correct viewa i've had on this blog I know i've had more. But. Oh well. Okay bye readers! - Peace, Marie.

Update!!

Hello readers On June 11 I was officially off school! Hehe well for this year ;) But anyways. How have you been? Not much has been happening but my mom and I have been looking everywhere for a guitar that I like. I found one on Sam Ash and it's only 100$ I got plent of money for my b-day which basically makes up more than half of the price for the guitar. I really like it too! So, we might go look at it at a store. Hehe well I guess I don't have anything else to say Edgar and I are still going strong! :) ... Oh yeah... ... I'll tell you readers a story later ;) Hehe. 5 - 25 - 10 Whee! Haha okay well I don't want to drag this anymore so I'm going to go. Bye readers! Oh and I might be getting a new haircut--Oh shoot! I totally forgot! I have this huge scratch on my face and they'll see that.. I got the scratch because well I..fall a lot HAHA! Well I fall so much it doesn't hurt anymore. Hehe. The scratch doesn't hurt. But it does look ugly. Hehe. Well I guess I'll have to get that haircut some other week. Okay well bye readers! - Peace, Marie.

Gifts!

Hello readers! Sorry I didn't post yesterday. I was um, busy... ;) I got so many cool things that I wanted, and guess what. My grandpa got me the iPod Touch! At first my mom didn't approve of it but then she left me a lone and had let me keep it. We've been searching around for guitars for me. I already have it down. I want a dark, navy, blue Acoustic guitar. I decided that I'm going to name it Lady. This is the name that I like a lot because a lot of soft indie music that I listen too are usually girls with their acoustic. So there it is. A navy blue acoustic guitar named Lady. Hehe. Yesterday I went to a party. It was my cousin's graduation. I also got gifts from their too because I didn't see my uncles and aunts. That was awesome. I'm not going to tell you what I got because. Well, for privacy sake. But I am getting an Acoustic guitar and I already have an iPod touch. But I did get a stuffed animal from my best friend Lexy and Edgar gave me a stuffed bear with a bow on it and he wrote me the sweetest, but long, letter! Hehe. I thanked him for it. My best friend Nick gave me some money and a uh, uh, mini skateboard haha. He said sorry because he totally forgot that it was my birthday. I tried giving him his money back but he wouldn't take it. Then he ran off so I couldn't find him! Oh my gosh! On friday I was looking all over the place for Edgar and then one of his friends found me then I found him! I gave him a great big hug. But then something was different he held onto me longer and I had to hold him around the neck, we were on unleveled ground so it was kinda hard to hug like that. Then he asked me.. " Can I get a kiss?" OH MY GOD! I thought he wouldn't ever say something like that to me. To be honest with you I was so tempted to give him a kiss but ugh! There were too many people around! Plus we were not on such leveled ground so I'd have to tip toe and knowing me I'd probably trip. Plus, my lips were chapped! So, it was just not a good time. So I said. "Oh..Oh my gosh -fake laughing- I can't"
"why?"
"I'm nervous."
"Oh..Don't be it's okay."
" I can't i'm really nervous."
"Okay.."
Then he hugged me again. Oh dammit! It was so tempting I would've if there wasn't people watching us (my friends) and if my lips weren't chapped I would have! I'm going to have to apologize to him about that. We'll see what he has to say. Well guys sorry if there was any mistakes I'm really tired so I'm trying to hurry and get to bed. Okay thanks for reading this! Byee. -Peace, Marie.