Who cares? :)

Hello readers! Sorry I haven't posted in a while but I hope this posting will make it up? :) Okay so today I went to my old elementary school with my best friend Lexy and well I had a blast we've done this many times but I just really like hanging out with her! Well not much has been happening with me and Edgar. We haven't talked for 3 or 4 days now. I think today is the 5th day we haven't talked to each other. And, I know he's not mad at me he's upset about something that happened with his friends. Well, I know he's not mad at me because a long time ago he told me to check out his Myspace and well I decided to look at it now and he still has our pictures up and such. So, if he was mad at me he wouldn't have those pictures up. But, I've been thinking. For the past days I've been depressed. Because of him! And, well people have noticed about my change in attitude. And today I realized I don't need him at all! I don't need him to make me happy. I don't need him so I can talk to him about my problems! I've been so stupid to be depressed over him! I'm really going to stick to my word now. I don't need to be with anyone to make me feel happy. I have my family and my friends! So, you know what who cares? :) And to make up for all those days of being depressed I decided to hang out with my friends more often. I'm barely realizing I don't need to go out with someone to make me feel loved. I am so stupid! But I'm glad I realized it now. I'm not saying that I don't care about Edgar. No no, I do care about him. I just won't be thinking about him all the time anymore. Besides I'm too young to be feeling these emotions! I'm only 13! Besides he's a grade higher than I am. That isn't right at all. So, you know I'm going to enjoy this relationship no matter how long it lasts. I mean we can still be friends. I don't mind I have no problem with that. It's just I tried that before now the guy doesn't even say Hi to me while I try to be nice to him! But, I'll still try it. Okay well I'm going to go. Bye readers! - Peace, Marie.

Oh..thank god!

Hey readers! So, remember I told you about the website I was going to make. Well, I made it! It's only for photography of mine but it explains it a lot more on the website. Though it is not fully completed.http://photographyflash.webstarts.com/
Hehe! Oh, readers..I am so happy. For awhile I thought Edgar and I were slipping apart.Thank god he texted me reassuring that he still loved me. He showed me something too. It was a picture of us that he edited and such! It was very cute. Oh readers but for some reason I can't stop thinking about how alone I feel. I don't know why but for at least a week now I've been feeling alone and such. I mean I know my parents love me. But I've been noticing I've been acting differently to them now. It's like..Well I'm just excluding myself in everything we do. And when I do do this I don't realize it. So, I start feeling very alone and it just bothers me alot. I can't really talk to my parents about this because the last time I did they ended up mad at me and saying that we're all living in the same house..and blah blah blah. But whatever. I'll get over this.. I'm going to be hanging out with Edgar often just to see if that feeling goes away. Okay, well I'm going to go now. Bye readers! -Peace, Marie.

An Idea..

Hello readers! Not muched has happened over the days that I haven't been posting. I was going to hang out with my friend tomorrow but she recently called and said that she couldn't make it because her parents are frustrated with her..Okay I guess so.. So, I might hang out with Edgar or my best friend Nick. Who knows. I would like to hang out with Edgar but I don't know his number so, I usually have to wait for him to text me. And he doesn't have a cell phone so he uses his friends phones or his sister's phone..But anyways, as I said on one of my last postings, I said I would make a website but I didn't know what to do with it. I also mentioned about getting a camera. Well now that I have one. I can practice my photography skills. Hehe. So, once I get the hang of creating a website I'll let you readers know! Okay well I just wanted to keep this updated so I'll post some more maybe tomorrow or some other day. Bye readers! - Peace, Marie.

New haircut.

Hello readers! Nothing much has happened lately. I've still been talking to Edgar so all is good. On Saturday I'm going to be hanging out with friends at my house. So, that'll be fun. I'm hoping my mom will take me to the hair salon to get my 'do' done. I'm just going to have my bangs straight across instead of side swept. We'll see how this comes out! I've been looking for a guitar and I found a nice guitar cheap too! For only 100 dollars! And I have just enough to buy it. (: So, let's see how that goes. Okay well since I don't have much to say, I'm going to go. Bye readers!
Oh P.S. the site meter thing, well that's not the correct viewa i've had on this blog I know i've had more. But. Oh well. Okay bye readers! - Peace, Marie.

Update!!

Hello readers On June 11 I was officially off school! Hehe well for this year ;) But anyways. How have you been? Not much has been happening but my mom and I have been looking everywhere for a guitar that I like. I found one on Sam Ash and it's only 100$ I got plent of money for my b-day which basically makes up more than half of the price for the guitar. I really like it too! So, we might go look at it at a store. Hehe well I guess I don't have anything else to say Edgar and I are still going strong! :) ... Oh yeah... ... I'll tell you readers a story later ;) Hehe. 5 - 25 - 10 Whee! Haha okay well I don't want to drag this anymore so I'm going to go. Bye readers! Oh and I might be getting a new haircut--Oh shoot! I totally forgot! I have this huge scratch on my face and they'll see that.. I got the scratch because well I..fall a lot HAHA! Well I fall so much it doesn't hurt anymore. Hehe. The scratch doesn't hurt. But it does look ugly. Hehe. Well I guess I'll have to get that haircut some other week. Okay well bye readers! - Peace, Marie.

Gifts!

Hello readers! Sorry I didn't post yesterday. I was um, busy... ;) I got so many cool things that I wanted, and guess what. My grandpa got me the iPod Touch! At first my mom didn't approve of it but then she left me a lone and had let me keep it. We've been searching around for guitars for me. I already have it down. I want a dark, navy, blue Acoustic guitar. I decided that I'm going to name it Lady. This is the name that I like a lot because a lot of soft indie music that I listen too are usually girls with their acoustic. So there it is. A navy blue acoustic guitar named Lady. Hehe. Yesterday I went to a party. It was my cousin's graduation. I also got gifts from their too because I didn't see my uncles and aunts. That was awesome. I'm not going to tell you what I got because. Well, for privacy sake. But I am getting an Acoustic guitar and I already have an iPod touch. But I did get a stuffed animal from my best friend Lexy and Edgar gave me a stuffed bear with a bow on it and he wrote me the sweetest, but long, letter! Hehe. I thanked him for it. My best friend Nick gave me some money and a uh, uh, mini skateboard haha. He said sorry because he totally forgot that it was my birthday. I tried giving him his money back but he wouldn't take it. Then he ran off so I couldn't find him! Oh my gosh! On friday I was looking all over the place for Edgar and then one of his friends found me then I found him! I gave him a great big hug. But then something was different he held onto me longer and I had to hold him around the neck, we were on unleveled ground so it was kinda hard to hug like that. Then he asked me.. " Can I get a kiss?" OH MY GOD! I thought he wouldn't ever say something like that to me. To be honest with you I was so tempted to give him a kiss but ugh! There were too many people around! Plus we were not on such leveled ground so I'd have to tip toe and knowing me I'd probably trip. Plus, my lips were chapped! So, it was just not a good time. So I said. "Oh..Oh my gosh -fake laughing- I can't"
"why?"
"I'm nervous."
"Oh..Don't be it's okay."
" I can't i'm really nervous."
"Okay.."
Then he hugged me again. Oh dammit! It was so tempting I would've if there wasn't people watching us (my friends) and if my lips weren't chapped I would have! I'm going to have to apologize to him about that. We'll see what he has to say. Well guys sorry if there was any mistakes I'm really tired so I'm trying to hurry and get to bed. Okay thanks for reading this! Byee. -Peace, Marie.

There's a birthday tomorrow?

Why is there is! Hello readers! How have all of you been? I have came to a conclusion... I Love Daisies. I like how they're big and bold :) Guess what? My Birthday is tomorrow! Tomorrow I will officially be 13 years old! Exciting huh? Well I went out to hit the malls today. I needed to get my best friend a gift because her birthday is the same as mine. Interesting, we're just a like, we always hang out, and we have the same birthday! Hehe. I got her a gift card to one of her favorite stores ;) I also got Edgar a gift card. He got a Hot Topic gift card. I'm going to tell him to hold onto it because they might be having Eminem clothing soon! And he really likes Eminem. So, yay! I also got new clothes. My sister's friend came and met us at the mall and he knew it was my birthday tomorrow so, he told me he would pay for something that I would like and he had bought me a T-Shirt from Hot Topic, I got a Social Distortion shirt! The one that I wanted very much. Hehe. I thanked him a lot. I also got a cardigan! I love cardigans hehe. I also got some big huge Nerd Glasses, look in my profile picture and those are the glasses. Also, if you notice the really pretty Daisy that one was from my friend Fionce that I had mentioned on my '30th Post' Tomorrow is also the last day of school! Oh my gosh. I'm going to miss everyone terribly. But, I need to check if I have a C- or higher in math. If not, no iPod touch for me! :( I will get an Acoustic guitar! My mom also mentioned about getting me a new camera. So, I can't wait for that! Hehe. Well guys I'm really hyped up so I'm going to cut this one short too. Oh and I want to mention that, if I get my guitar I'm going to practice it A LOT. And once I get the hang of things my first song that I wull play will be I'll follow you into the dark by Death Cab for Cutie. Well thanks for reading my posts guys/gals! - Peace, Marie.

30th Post!

Hey readers! Hehe pretty cool huh? 30th post not too bad. Well anyways today was okay, just another boring day. My birthday is in...2 days! As well as my best friends bday! Well, I got a shot today. Not such a great thing... But it's all good! Anyways, I made a list of what I want for my birthday for my parents. And the number one thing I want is an iPod Touch! But...I'm not going to be able to get that. I have to have a C or higher in Math, right now I have a D-... But hopefully my extra credit work that I did will bring my grade up to a C. I had to write a page about Isaac Newton, that was 30 points. And another extra credit was to make a home made dinner and a recipe and I think she said that was 50 points? So, we'll see. My dad told me that I should try asking her if she can raise my grade up at least to a C so I can get an iPod Touch! I doubt that would work but I'm going try...I will... Though, if I can't get an iPod Touch I would like an Acoustic Guitar, that's dark blue or a plain brown wooden looking one. Over the summer I will be practicing it if I do get one! I'll name it definitely. I'm thinking of Lady? I like it. Or..Possibly something else. or Country. or..Something that has meaning to me, not just some random name. Well I don't have much to say so I'll cut you readers some slack and make this short. ;) - Peace, Marie.

Yearbook.

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Fight?

Hey readers! Well I skipped school today (monday) and Oh boy was my mom pissed off! She had actually warned my dad not to let me miss school...but I missed it. Now I'm scared as hell. Haha. That woman is really scary sometimes. She didn't talk to me or look at me when she came home from work. But it's fine, I didn't really see her today because I took a nap that took up the whole day. Now I'm not tired but I'll go to sleep soon. But oh man, she's still going to be mad tomorrow so it's best if I don't even talk to her. Hehe. I know how she works. I mean she's not even mad she's just forcing herself now. She's giving me the cold shoulder. And I know this because she doesn't have the mad tone in her voice anymore. When I was going up to my room to get ready before I go to sleep, I told her. "Okay goodnight, love you." she responded, "Night." So. I know what she is doing. I don't think I can blame her. I'd be mad too. But, It's just I dunno. This whole "fight" is just...Well, I hate to say it.. A big waste of time. It's just that too me this isn't teaching me anything. I'm still going to miss school days. Of course I would never tell her that. I made so many mistakes on telling her that stuff and she oh my gosh, she cusses at me and everything I finally learned not do that stuff no matter how mad I am. Haha. Don't worry she's not one of those parents that hits their kids, or has a short fuse. Damn, now that I think of it. She's really cool. I don't know how to explain it just yet but their will be a time when I know how. Well i'm going to go to school tomorrow, which I don't want to but I am. I actually hate getting over from being sick. Everytime I'm getting over my sickness I get a runny and stuffy nose. I hate it. Does anyone know how to cure that? Or at least make it less irritating? By the way, I'm thinking of making a website. Of what? I have absolutely no idea. Once I'd get a new camera, i'm hoping for my b-day, I might be posting a lot more things. The camera that I use is either my phone or my computer. Sucks but i'll have to accept it. Anywhos, I dropped a hint to my parents that I wanted an acoustic guitar. I have an electric guitar but it just never interested me and I never bothered to learn how to play it. I told them that I want a Dark blue acoustic or plain wooden brown looking one. Anything else is FORBIDDEN. Hehe. Well actually it all depends if I am getting anything for my b-day after the stunt I pulled off today. Well, I haven't gotten in touch with my side but I'm trying. I heard listening to classical music can get your creative juices working.. I tried it. I didn't get anything except for weird thoughts about life. Anywhos, have you guys heard of a website called Pandora? I love it! I always listen to, "Gregory and the Hawk Station." I love all the songs that come on that one particularly station. Basically Pandora is a site that allows you to listen to your favorite band but includes other bands with similar music tastes it's really good! Most of my favorite bands that I discovered were all thanks to Pandora. Just to let you readers know, I do not get paid for the websites that I mention. I really don't. But... If someone is reading this and wants to get their site promoted leave a comment I'll be sure to reply. ;) Haha. Okay well I'm going to go roam around the internet - Peace, Marie. ☮
By the way I'm thinking of getting this hairstyle over the summer looks nice right? Here are the two links for the hairstyle and Pandora.

http://www.pandora.com/
http://besthaircutstyles.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/09/wavy-hair-styles-11.jpg

Sick.

Hey readers what's up? Ugh, I got sick! Great just what I really wanted. I'm dizzy all the time, my throat hurts, I want to throw up, and not to mention I'm dizzy. Anywhos, tomorrow I have to go to school. I really didn't want to because most of the kids aren't going to be there so it's like what's the point? Now, that I am sick I definitely don't want to go. But of course my mom doesn't believe me so I have to go. Tomorrow, well today, is my Grandpa's b-day. I remember this because our birthdays are June 7 and June 11 so we combined them and made 7/11 and that's easy to remember. Anywhos the Edgar thing.. Well I'm still feeling down about it. I wish I never had to go through this. But, on the brighter side I don't have to go to summer school so that's good. Well on Saturday I went to my two cousin's birthday party. It was okay. I mean at first It was really boring but then later at night it became interesting. Basically I was just sitting with my mom, dad, aunts and uncles. They're pretty funny. Well, my sister returned from her camping trip. She was a little peeved off since she didn't get to gamble. She's 18 so, the casino was probably for people who were 21 or such? Well I guess that's all. Bye Readers! - Peace, Marie.

P.s. You readers need to check out this blog. http://www.farmtina.com/ She's living the life of my dreams! Her blog is really pretty too! (:

Summer.

Hello readers. Well I've been feeling better..A bit. Though, I'm trying hard not to think about Edgar. Well he did say we could hang out in the summer so that'll be okay. Let's see who has the guts to call up the person first! Well I am happy because we got our yearbooks today! Though I could have got a lot of signatures but the staff gave the yearbooks to us at 8th period, my last class. Well, I'm not going to go to school only because a lot of my friends are going to Smith Park or Knotts for the end of the year field trip. Well, I didn't want to go to Smith Park, Smith park is for 6-7th only. Knotts Berry Farm is for 8th graders only. Well, I'm not going to go. I could always get my friends signatures on Tuesday so, i'll be fine then. Though, I have to go to summer school. It's just for fun though, not so fun for me.. But, it is computer animation and photoshop. Plus, the teacher really likes me so she'll be happy I guess. I am so mad at myself. I DIDN'T KNOW MY TWO FRIENDS ARE 8TH GRADERS!! I thought they were 7th! That means they're going away too! I feel sooo... I don't know. Hopefully I won't be missing them too much when it's time to go back to school. Well during the summer I'm going to try to improve on my appearance and style. Lately, I've been feeling self-conscious. So, I'm going to try some new hairstyles, though I'm still trying to have my hair longer so for now, I'll be getting trims for my bangs. Until I find the right hairstyle for me I'll let you guys know. Bye readers! - Peace, Marie.

P.S. I didn't realize that I didn't mention that my boyfriends name is Edgar. Hehe. Sorry if there was any confusion.

Lame.

Hello readers! Lately I haven't been feeling well. I'm not sick or anything I think it's just my 'mental/emotional health.' I've been feeling down lately I suppose. Everything is good with Edgar and I, if that is what you're wondering about. I don't know. Maybe I'm feeling down because I've been slacking off of drawing. I haven't written much. My creativity hasn't been getting much attention lately. I don't know what it is. I also think that I'm feeling down because, I finally meet the friends that I always wanted, and now they all have to go away to a different school. I've also been thinking about Edgar, which i've been trying so hard not to. I told him we might have to break up next friday. I thought I would be relieved, I'm not. I feel sad about that though I have to tell myself that it's all my fault. This is all my fault, because I don't need a boyfriend at this age. This is all my fault because I wasn't thinking wisely. This is all my fault, because I haven't been giving any thought to anything lately. Well, I guess I only have myself to blame. Next friday I guess I'll have to break up with him, or he'll break up with me. Well, it was great while it lasted, we can be friends right? Next Friday is my birthday (June 11) Bye readers. - Peace, Marie.